Category: Towards PhD!

Culture of idiots

I forgot how the whole pursuit of job searching is a job by itself. Writing self-promoting paragraphs after paragraphs, assessing which companies would fit your values, trying to determine how much you are going to be paid at the same wary you might be asking for so much (or so little?), being overwhelmed with so […]

How to lose a country

(First of all, FINALLY SUBMITTED MY THESIS!) Last week, I finished reading How to Lose a Country: The Seven Steps from Democracy to Dictatorship by a Turkish journalist and political thinker in exile, Ece Temelkuran, which is a brilliant memoir/nonfiction on how countries, regardless of geography or administration, can quickly slide into dictatorship once we […]

This doesn’t reduce me

I still was not able to submit my thesis. Apparently there are still some leftover administration woes (!!!) which pushed the deadline to yet again, hopefully, another day. I swear in 4 days I am going to look back at this post and revel in the fact that I have finally successfully submitted. There is […]

Make space

I’m very fascinated on yesterday’s discovery found through Alan Jacobs’ brilliant newsletter, Snakes and Ladders, about this very interesting institution during Safavid Iran called kitab-khana, literally ‘book-house’. I remember when libraries in Malay used to be called kutubkhanah, which I used to think was named after the Pole (of ‘kutub’ = North and South Pole) […]

Courage is strategic

I have realised that I have indeliberately gotten into this new practise recently as I started to journal everyday in my 2020 Moleskine Planner. I am still in knee-deep with my university administration woes at this point of time — just like today, I received my Turnitin report one week after requesting (which I remembered […]

The neverending drumbeat

I am currently having to jump through multiple administration hoops just in order to submit my thesis. In 2 weeks I will look back on this post and see that I have successfully submitted. Designer Frank Chimero — of whose writing, portfolio, and blog I have been diligently following since years — doesn’t always write. […]

Proofs are cruel

I’m onto my draft thesis corrections now, and if there are sentiments that ring true at this point of time, it comes from Zadie Smith from her book of essays, Changing My Mind, where she talks about receiving proofs: Proofs are so cruel! Breeding lilacs out of the dead land, mixing memory and desire, stirring […]

The worth of defeated valour

I received my thesis corrections yesterday from my supervisor, after a month long of ruminating its fate in his hands. Honestly now I that looked at it, I had no idea why I was so worried about it, seeing I knew I have done the job well. There were some disconnections between the theories and […]

Nervous & trying not to be

My thesis corrections are coming in tomorrow. I am so nervous I feel like puking, and in extension, I did not feel like writing. But fret not, thanks to my fascination in a whole myriad of niche topics, here’s a video presentation of a new technique for rendering hyper-realistic baked goods, to fill in today’s not-so-300-word-a-day. […]

On being a researcher

I have been thinking a lot about what it entails to be a good researcher, more so than in academic context, but beyond that. I have always thought the first step to be a good researcher is to have some amount of curiosity, which I generously possess. I have been told that I am a […]