Category: Personal

March 2020

Every day I take a 1-second video using the app 1 Second Everyday to record what’s happening in my life. This is for March 2020, at the time when the Big Bad Virus took hold of our society and not only we are being forced indoors, we are made aware to amass and reconsider all […]

A lot like him

My father’s supposedly 64th birthday is tomorrow. Holed up in the new home that we moved in 5 years ago — shared with my mother — during this Movement Control Order period, I think a lot about what he would react if he is still around. He would probably be like one of those stubborn […]

This terrifying purgatory

As we were stuck inside the house on the sixth day of our voluntary isolation, I realised I have been on my obsessive drive again. This is the pattern I recognised I had unintentionally adopted years while working my previous role — whenever I worry about work, I throw myself into more work and assign […]

My power is always here

In my adventure (that is how I am reframing it now) of job hunting, one thing I caught myself often doing is to visit the company’s websites and took a look at the pictures of the people who worked there. I did this in no way to be stalkerish, but just to see if there […]

Poetic commute

Jessica Hibbard in her delightful Overlap newsletter, of which I often look forward to receiving every week, wrote, “In one of my favorite books about writing, Verlyn Klinkenborg advocates for noticing things and developing sentences in your head before writing them down. A small, 17-syllable poem is is easy enough to manipulate without committing anything […]

Bound to a place

We have the tendency to deliver the bad news first, good news after — perhaps as a form of mental defense and to soften the blow whatnot — so I am going to do the same here. The bad news: I have not received a single interview invite yet for 30+ job applications I have […]

February 2020

Every day I take a 1-second video using the app 1 Second Everyday to record what’s happening in my life. This is for February 2020, however brief, was a rollercoaster ride full of gaslighting, profanities, and tears. Thanks for nothing, Malaysian politicians.

The year of decades-weeks

Lenin was reported to be saying, “There are decades when nothing happens, and weeks when decades happen.” This is how every week in 2020 feels like — one of those decades-weeks. For every two job applications I sent out these days, I almost receive one in return. That’s 1:2, that’s half of everything. As someone […]

A recipe for a revolutionary vanguard

Windows by Jim Darling I received three job rejections today — one of them within the span of 10 minutes after I pressed ‘Send’ from the email. It would be a lie to say that I was not disheartened to find out about this — especially since I spent almost 10 hours on the assignments […]

Culture of idiots

I forgot how the whole pursuit of job searching is a job by itself. Writing self-promoting paragraphs after paragraphs, assessing which companies would fit your values, trying to determine how much you are going to be paid at the same wary you might be asking for so much (or so little?), being overwhelmed with so […]