Category: Personal

Placing my reflection

One of my biggest fear would be finding myself unable to enjoy reading, and unfortunately I think that is exactly what I am experiencing right now. I noticed this last week as I was flipping through Zadie Smith’s book of essays Changing My Mind. I love Zadie Smith’s writing, I love her columns in The […]

The worth of defeated valour

I received my thesis corrections yesterday from my supervisor, after a month long of ruminating its fate in his hands. Honestly now I that looked at it, I had no idea why I was so worried about it, seeing I knew I have done the job well. There were some disconnections between the theories and […]

Wholehearted and sure

A morning wet market in Kuala Kedah From Austin Kleon’s blog, I found these words of Wendell Berry’s from his 1968 essay called A Native Hill: I had made a significant change in my relation to the place: before, it had been mine by coincidence or accident; now it was mine by choice. My return, […]

The Earth is singing

(Note: I almost did not want to publish this because it felt like it was written with less thoughts than the rest, but I decided to keep it because I wanted to see the pattern of writing I did on days when writing even at least 300 words a day did not seem to come […]

Hope is participatory

Seth Globepainter in Bordeaux, France I have been contemplating whether I should write the reasons why I decided to pursue a PhD following this post last week. Among the questions that popped up in my head was, to whom I owe these justifications to? Of which the answer clearly was: No one. But I read […]

The impermanence of things

We took Teddy Jules to the vet today — it has to do with his UTI problem and his bladder again, which incessantly creeps back onto him whenever he gains significant body weight — and came home with a small plastic bag full of his medications of all sorts — liquid and pills and tablet, […]

A walking dictionary of joy

I have decided this is going to be my solely 2020 goal: Especially after stumbling into Zan Romanoff’s newsletter where she talks about the struggles of trying to discern how much you have achieved things in life and how much you want to achieve more, but still feel like you aren’t there yet (I believe […]

What to do with this knowledge?

Collagist/photographer/painter Lorna Simpson‘s work, Head on Ice #3, on the new edition of Angela Davis’ Women, Race & Class. (via Meanwhile) I handed in my thesis for my supervisor’s review last week, in which practically I have about two more stages to go before this doctoral journey of mine comes to an end. The manuscript, ready-bound […]