Month: April 2019

Neurological dreams

When I was struggling with anxiety and constant panic attacks, I always noticed that I would get dreams involving one central theme the night before the attack would happen: weight, or having some sort of heaviness imposed upon me. As I tried to sleep after fighting worries enveloping me and thousands of horrible imaginary scenarios […]

On editing and [redacted]

I’m currently proofing and copyediting two chapters of my thesis that I have spent writing for the past 2-3 weeks. During this stage, I could hear myself sometimes going between, “Did I really write that? That’s smart!” or “Did I really write that? What was I thinking?!” I always am slow when it comes to […]

On evil eye and envy

(Background: A few days earlier, in a community I joined I have come to a realisation that someone was unhappy about what I wrote, citing that we need to write more about “slices of life” like “coming home from work and watching YouTube”. I would normally let it go, but the fact that she made […]

Shut up

I was informed that journalist and author Robert Caro, known for his biographies of US political figures, had just dropped his new book called Working: Researching, Interviewing, Writing. As a writer, researcher, and someone who had conducted a number of interviews myself, I have always been fascinated by the idea of interviewing/talking to people from […]

Taken to the sea

I have been reluctant to talk about my father’s supposedly 63rd birthday (he passed away in December 2011) which fell on last March 28th because — unlike what people have been describing — it does not get easier and I do not get happier, just because I seem so. I once posted this illustration by […]

You are made to withstand an inferno

Five years ago I decided to jump on the Eurostar train from London to embark on a solo day trip to Paris. As I arrived ready to stuff my face with all the Parisian pastries, I remembered that there was a long queue to enter the Notre-Dame Cathedral, and to be honest I almost gave […]

Young, connected, and broke

I am currently reading a book called The Digital Party: Political Organisation and Online Democracy written by political sociologist Paolo Gerbaudo, which talks about the rise of digital political parties in these recent years. So what are digital parties? They refer to the rise of political parties which adopt the platform model of digital companies […]

Today on Women Are Amazing

I thought I have no specific theme on what to write about today, so I am going to show up and just make things up as I go along. As I decide on lists (lists are always good) and work on the items, the theme finally emerges: Women Are Amazing and Every Day I am […]

I am after 8 pm Ursula K Le Guin

I think about routines so often and while I do benefit from a number of chores out of habits I perform every day (wake up, coffee, read, lunch, write, early dinner, work, sleep), I admit that once in a while we do deserve some sprinkles of varieties in our daily chores once in a while. […]